But none of these things move me; nor do I count my life dear to myself, so that I may finish my race with joy, and the ministry which I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God. Acts 20:24
Saturday, January 5, 2013
Closing out 2012 bringing in 2013
“Forget the former things;
do not dwell on the past.
19 See, I am doing a new thing!
Now it springs up; do you not perceive it?
I am making a way in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland.
20 The wild animals honor me,
the jackals and the owls,
because I provide water in the wilderness
and streams in the wasteland,
to give drink to my people, my chosen,
21 the people I formed for myself
that they may proclaim my praise.
Sunday, July 11, 2010
parable of the unmerciful servant
21Then Peter came to Jesus and asked, "Lord, how many times shall I forgive my brother when he sins against me? Up to seven times?"
22Jesus answered, "I tell you, not seven times, but seventy-seven times.[f]
23"Therefore, the kingdom of heaven is like a king who wanted to settle accounts with his servants. 24As he began the settlement, a man who owed him ten thousand talents[g] was brought to him. 25Since he was not able to pay, the master ordered that he and his wife and his children and all that he had be sold to repay the debt.
26"The servant fell on his knees before him. 'Be patient with me,' he begged, 'and I will pay back everything.' 27The servant's master took pity on him, canceled the debt and let him go.
28"But when that servant went out, he found one of his fellow servants who owed him a hundred denarii.[h] He grabbed him and began to choke him. 'Pay back what you owe me!' he demanded.
29"His fellow servant fell to his knees and begged him, 'Be patient with me, and I will pay you back.'
30"But he refused. Instead, he went off and had the man thrown into prison until he could pay the debt. 31When the other servants saw what had happened, they were greatly distressed and went and told their master everything that had happened.
32"Then the master called the servant in. 'You wicked servant,' he said, 'I canceled all that debt of yours because you begged me to. 33Shouldn't you have had mercy on your fellow servant just as I had on you?' 34In anger his master turned him over to the jailers to be tortured, until he should pay back all he owed.
35"This is how my heavenly Father will treat each of you unless you forgive your brother from your heart."
i've heard people use this passage to say that if you do not forgive, then you will not be forgiven. meaning, if you have an unforgiving spirit, then you're not a Christian because you do not have a regenerate and thus not going to heaven.
the above statement didn't sit well w/ me, but i couldn't really biblically articulate why. the passage above does seem to indicate that if you're not forgiving, then you're not a Christian, right?
but today, i took a closer look. what does verse 26 say? the servant says he's going to pay the owner back. his debt is astronomical. it's so big, that there's no way he can pay him back. the debt is equal to billions in our $$. so the fact that the servant says he's going to pay him back says that he doesn't really get it. he's just saying stuff to try and get out of the situation. he's begging, hoping to get some mercy. we've heard this being used to illustrate that God has paid our debt of sin and if that's the case, then v.26 is an example of people's response of trying to earn their salvation. if they're trying to earn salvation, then they didn't really get the gospel message in the first place.
of note, we don't see the servant's response to the master when the master shows compassion and forgives his debt (v.27). we don't know what he said. but we do know what he did next. he went to his fellow servant and demanded his money back. this indicates that the servant never really understood forgiveness from his master. he never got the message. so the question isn't, "can you lose your salvation if you don't forgive others". to me, the question is, was the person even a Christian to begin with? did he respond to the gospel? as we see here, the master extended compassion and forgave the debt, but the servant didn't accept it.
people ask, can you show the virtue of true forgiveness if you're not a Christian? i don't think you can... because without Christ, you don't even have the ABILITY to divinely forgive. True forgiveness, that is selfless is through the workings of the Holy Spirit... so going back to the parable. the servant didn't have the ability to forgive his fellow servant for a far lesser debt because he didn't ever receive True Forgiveness from his master.
still processing this one, but for now, i'm tired.
Friday, October 30, 2009
depth
yes, i want depth.
yes, i want people to be real.
but in this day in age, why is that so hard? i was at a gathering the other night with people i didn't know very well. it was a pleasant night but it never got past the "hello, my name is... and i do this for a living and have x number of kids" we talked about home decorating stuff (the hostess just had her house painted). don't get me wrong, i LOVE talking about home decor. but 4 1/2 hours later as i walked home, i thought to myself that i don't know these ladies. i didn't have a substantive conversation w/ anyone. not ONE. OK. i know what some of you are thinking. it takes time. it's the small talk first. build the trust and then the deeper stuff comes later. while i agree in a sense that sometimes, we need to just suck it up and give it time, i don't believe it always has to be that way. i think it has to do with this culture and society that we live in. that says, we should put on a mask that says "i'm ok". as long as i'm telling you what i DO during the day, you'll think i've got my act together. but quite honestly, i don't really care what you DO. i want to know who you ARE. put aside the pretense for a while. drop the mask. pull up a chair and a cup of joe and let's be real.
on a post script, i was so hungry for real conversation, when i got home, i woke my man up at midnight and shared w/ him what i learned in nahum in my bible study that morning. that book is really rich.
here's my quick nahum-in-a-nutshell:
nahum was a hebrew who lived in judah. he had a vision from God about Nineveh and he spoke the oracle of nineveh to the people of judah. nahum is about 100 years after jonah's evangelistic efforts to ninevah. (remember jonah and the whale)? so nineveh repented after jonah went to them. but we see that 100 years later, they resorted back to their ways. they were known for their barbaric ways and the surrounding countries didn't like them. nineveh was thriving. they were strong and seemed invincible. but nahum talks about their destruction. and destruction came for this city as prophesied. in fact, the remains of nineveh were only found about 40 years ago, when some historians discovered some books. so what does this all say? 1. i was reminded of the sovereignty of God. God is the ultimate judge and in the end He will judge all. watch out world! 2. parts of the book kind of read like God is building up a case - reminds me of micah. 6. and i pondered on how in God's courtroom absolute Truth always prevails. unlike the junk that you see going on in the courtrooms today. sometimes, people just suck. but God is good and He is just. Enter his courtroom. take your case to God. There are no unjust scales there. Truth will always rule in His courts.
Sunday, August 16, 2009
just when you think you're on track
Friday, August 14, 2009
God-inspirations needed
as i'm reading through numbers, it's rather easy to just read it as a historical text. i pray that Your Word would seep through the pores of my soul. it's getting to be a little dry and i pray for your merciful hand to guide my reading. i pray for personal encounters with You as i read your Truth. teach me. show me. inspire me.
-amen.
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
90 day challenge
this is week 2 of the the Bible in 90 days
week one i was perpetually behind. i'm still trying to catch up, but i'm gettin' close!
this is the 4th time around for the Bible in 90 days and it's nice to see new things each time i read it. in 2006, my highlights were in red. 2007, my highlights were in purple. in 2008, there were no highlights because i used a podcast (bad idea!), and this year my highlights are in green. yes, i love to color coordinate and i love seeing the different colored God-inspired thoughts throughout the years. it's my little rainbow covenant w/ God (kind of like God's covenant w/ noah but not really)....
my little PS... we started Bible 90 on August 2nd. so today is day 10.
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Ladies Retreat 1
so i wanted to take some time to reflect on it but then that gets overwelming to try and write about all that was impressed on the heart. so i thought i'd break up my notes into quotes that struck me.
QUOTE 1: "What pit did Jesus pull me out of?"
As Christians we all know that Jesus came to save us from our sins... but what sins?
yes, i know you can say - all sin. but there are certain sins that are specific to me. based on my personality, my upbringing, my everything... i have certain "pits of sin" that i seem to fall into - and keep falling into. so what pit did he pull me from?
honestly, this question was really hard for me. i'm so analytical and i constantly like to evaluate and dissect everything - thoughts, actions, words, ideas... but i didn't know the answer to this question. that told me one thing. that i do not have good quality, intimate time with God where I'm quiet before Him. instead i'm going off about what i need and don't have. what the latest - 411 in my life is, just in case God didn't know, you know. so it's something that i've been trying to work on this week. being quiet before God. can i tell you that it's really really really hard?!
Wednesday, January 7, 2009
Bible reading
unfortunately i didn't keep to the schedule so rather than being 90 days, it was more like 130 days.
i have to admit that this time around wasn't that great for me.
here's why:
1. i really really really do not like falling behind of a schedule. it's the oc side of me. so i was constantly irritated at how far behind i was.
2. i did almost all of my "reading" via podcasts. i listened to most of it while driving or running. while it made for efficiently checking off the chapters, sometimes, it's not about efficiency. often times (esp i was having a hard run or was just tired, then i found myself zoning out - even after replaying the same sections!)
3. if i do listen to the Bible, then i need to find a way to get it all in one version. it was really disconnected switching versions every other day or so. i uesd one podcast as my main source and he went from the message to the new king james to the english contemporary.... etc. it was all over the place. really hard for me to follow any motifs or themes which is why i like to do the 90 days reading to begin w/!
4. the podcast i used was by a guy who liked to talk/ share, ponder... whatever you want to call it for the first 1-3 minutes of the reading. it DROVE ME NUTS!!! i know i shouldn't get so upset about it because he wasn't doing anything wrong, but i just wanted him to get on w/ it!! see? i'm still upset about it!
5. towards the end, i was all over the place, reading malachi, john, and revelations at the same time. partly because of the way the podcast was set up and partly because i was trying to finish.
all in all, i'm glad this wasn't my first experience w/ it, because if it had been, i probably wouldn't do this again....
Monday, October 20, 2008
bible reading week 7 and 8
with the election coming up, i've been very intentional about not listening to or reading any political news. mainly because i get so steamed with how the media seems to twist things around and how the players themselves aren't playing fair. it's enough when you've got a husband who works for a news organization and brings that stuff home anyways ;)... speaking of which, i got a call from "joe the plumber from arlington" the other day on behalf of obama. HA!!
anyways, ps 46 seemed to say a lot on this matter for me and it was really encouraging. have a listen:
Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way
and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea,
3 though its waters roar and foam
and the mountains quake with their surging.
Selah
...He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth;
he breaks the bow and shatters the spear,
he burns the shields [b] with fire.
10 "Be still, and know that I am God;
I will be exalted among the nations,
I will be exalted in the earth."
I LOVE this!
so there! whoever becomes president -- God WILL BE exalted regardless of whatever agenda man comes up with.
Monday, September 29, 2008
bible reading week 5 and 6
i also love this from ps. 62:5 "find rest in God alone". what else am i finding rest (or trying to ) in?
lastly, this caught my attention, ps 106:31 paraphrasing here: Phinehas stood up for God and it was credited to him as righteousness. i love that phrase "credited to him as righteousness". that phrase was also used to describe Abraham's faith and Noah too, right?
Monday, September 15, 2008
Bible reading week 4
Another minor point --- while I'm not about to go into a political discussion (i'm trying to keep myself as far away from this controversial topic as possible), but i was reminded that in the beginning chapters of Judges, that God used Deborah as a judge to rule over the isrealites. so while only God knows what is going to happen in the '08 elections, i'm so grateful to know that God is in charge and that He has gone before us and has already choosen the next president.
Friday, September 5, 2008
Ps 90:17
And [a](B)confirm for us the work of our hands;
Yes, confirm the work of our hands.
This seem to be my prayer these days - that God would establish what He's giving me the grace and strength to do in the time that we spend on this earth. May it give God all glory and honor. Unto You oh Lord, unto You alone.
Saturday, August 23, 2008
Week 1 Bible Reading
i'm doing this w/ a group of ladies and once a week we're sending out an email w/ our comments.
i thought i'd try to post my thoughts here so i could keep track of them...
one motif that i want to try and follow this time around is this idea of east and west. i picked up on it a bit late in the game during my last reading, but there seemed to be a correlation between east = bad/ negative and west equated to good. ie. Adam and Eve in Genesis 3:24 " So He drove out the man; and He placed cherubim at the east of the garden of Eden, and a flaming sword which turned every way, to guard the way to the tree of life."
is anyone else having a difficult time getting into job? i am. maybe it's because i've read / listened to it in various versions - but it seems to not flow together for me yet. has anyone figured out what the timeframe is for job? are we talking days? months? hum.. if anyone has any insights on job that might spark something for me, i'd love to hear it.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Thoughts on eternity II
paul was in prison when he wrote this and the reason he had such joy and contentment was because of his experience with the Gospel. He got it and he became single-minded about sharing it.
love it!
Friday, October 26, 2007
Thoughts on eternity
just something i'm pondering these days in light of a conversation with a friend.
Wednesday, October 24, 2007
original thought #1 follow up
- Ex 10:19 And the LORD changed the wind to a very strong west wind, which caught up the locusts and carried them into the Red Sea. Not a locust was left anywhere in Egypt.
- ex 26:22 Make six frames for the far end, that is, the west end of the tabernacle,
- ex 26:27 five for those on the other side, and five for the frames on the west, at the far end of the tabernacle.
- ex 27:12 "The west end of the courtyard shall be fifty cubits wide and have curtains, with ten posts and ten bases.
Original thought #1
so, for the past year i've been pondering this idea of going east. i noticed it the first time did the Bible in 90 days bit and with each reading i seem to see it more and more.
- gen 2:8 Now the LORD God had planted a garden in the east, in Eden; and there he put the man he had formed.
- gen 3:24 After he drove the man out, he placed on the east side of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life.
- gen 4:16 So Cain went out from the LORD's presence and lived in the land of Nod, east of Eden.
- gen 10:30 The region where they lived stretched from Mesha toward Sephar, in the eastern hill country.
- gen 11:2 As men moved eastward, they found a plain in Shinar and settled there.
- gen 13:11 So Lot chose for himself the whole plain of the Jordan and set out toward the east. The two men parted company:
- Gen 25:6 But while he was still living, he gave gifts to the sons of his concubines and sent them away from his son Isaac to the land of the east.
Thursday, October 11, 2007
Tommy Nelson
i love when people are excited about the Word - it's contagious!
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
BS insight
i love finding little gems of insight. our pastor calls them spiritual illumination.
i saw the connection between Ham's curse by his dad and God's sovereignty in how it gets played out in future generations.
Chapter 9 talks about Noah's curse on Ham's descendants - Canaan. here's the curse:
25 he said,
"Cursed be Canaan!
The lowest of slaves
will he be to his brothers."
26 He also said,
"Blessed be the LORD, the God of Shem!
May Canaan be the slave of Shem.
27 May God extend the territory of Japheth ;
may Japheth live in the tents of Shem,
and may Canaan be his slave."
You see how the curse is carried out in chapter 10 when it lays out Ham's lineage: from Canaan:
10 The first centers of his kingdom were Babylon, Erech, Akkad and Calneh, in Shinar. 11 From that land he went to Assyria, where he built Nineveh, Rehoboth Ir, Calah 12 and Resen, which is between Nineveh and Calah; that is the great city.
13 Mizraim was the father of
the Ludites, Anamites, Lehabites, Naphtuhites, 14 Pathrusites, Casluhites (from whom the Philistines came) and Caphtorites.
15 Canaan was the father of
Sidon his firstborn, and of the Hittites, 16 Jebusites, Amorites, Girgashites, 17 Hivites, Arkites, Sinites, 18 Arvadites, Zemarites and Hamathites.
Later the Canaanite clans scattered 19 and the borders of Canaan reached from Sidon toward Gerar as far as Gaza, and then toward Sodom, Gomorrah, Admah and Zeboiim, as far as Lasha.
Notice the bold (my addition). I pulled out the major people groups that the Bible mentions later on. It's amazing how one action can impact generations upon generations! these people groups are enemies to the isrealites. of further note is that in deut. after the isrealites leave egypt, God commands the isrealites to destroy the people mentioned in verse 15-18 above.
Sunday, September 9, 2007
part time work
so i've been contemplating going back part time. went in for an interview and the company seems very flexible. in the past, God would make it really clear and i would walk out of that interview with a "nope, this is not it" feeling. with this one, i felt with a very strong maybe. so these days i've been praying for scripture. i'm one of those people that need scripture in making decisions because i know that i'm going to have good days and bad days. on those bad days, if i don't have scripture i start to doubt and question. feelings change - but the Word is steadfast.
the other day, in my QT, i was reflecting on david's prayer in 1 sam 30:8 "So David inquired of the LORD, saying, “Shall I pursue this troop? Shall I overtake them?”
And He answered him, “Pursue, for you shall surely overtake them and without fail recover all.”
and that has been my prayer regarding this job. Lord, shall i pursue? will i overtake it? or will it overtake me?
still praying about it. we'll see how the Lord leads.