Grieving is hard but parenting through grief is like a knife in the chest.
It's kind of like when my babies were babies and they'd cry. so you feed them, you change their diaper, you burp them, and yet they cry. then you start crying too because your heart breaks that they are so upset. you want to know the secret for how to fix it and make them better but you can't. so you fall on your knees, hold them close, and cry with them.